love is so complicated....
the combining of two hearts and souls ...
sometimes seems impossible...
sometimes ....
sometimes the rush is so fantastic the world can seem limitless...
how can one persons strengths and weaknesses
become our own?
why is it so hard to be nice to the one we love the most?
a happily married friend of mine said the funniest thing...
she said" i just want to be treated the way he would treat a complete
stranger at the grocery store."
how is it that time makes the rules?
time heals... but time also changes things....
and these changes can be so wonderfully nice, secure and strong....
then these changes can be disastrous...
time can separate us, almost distort our own thoughts and views....
make us feel a little lost...
timo living in atlanta and me living here in charleston...
it feels like we are at a crossroad...
six years ago i moved into our beach house waiting for him to
settle up in atlanta and move here too....
with the sale of his business falling through and business literally
knocking on his door, business is booming... in atlanta...
we have been together for twelve years and have never
been able to be apart...
we are always better together than separate...
" want you, i need you, i choose you -- over any other boy in the world, i'd choose you over & over again. your name, your face, your smell, the soft curls of your hair.. i miss those already. i miss you so much & you haven't been gone 4 hours."
i don't know who i am without timo,
am i going to have to find out?
love is so complicated....
it's the roller coaster....
the ups and downs...
and definitely the sharp turns that you don't expect...
"I blame his upbringing. I blame so much, and I had resolved this year to eliminate blame from my life. But the way he is, is not good for me. It's maintaining an alarming unhappiness in me that I need to get away from to feel whole again. Ending this will break my heart, and his too if I'm to believe him. The fairytale was so promising, so beautiful, so achingly beautiful that I don't want to give it up. Neither of us realized in the beginning that we were fools to think this would work. We gave it up by starting it in the first place."
this to we will fix and get through... how i am not sure but after all...
we always find a way...
love is trying so is time...
but love can survive if you can hold on tight
and not fall off the roller coaster...
just have to believe...