Saturday, November 19, 2011

today i'm sad...


it's the holiday season....
i have been under the weather...

and i am sad...
i miss you
and i don't want to...
but i do...

it's been so long since i have seen you
it feels all wrong....

the space in my heart gets bigger...
emptier....

i sometimes am still in disbelief
at what has come of us...

Christmas is going to be so hard...
i guess we won't be making 
ornaments this year...





or decorating our...
MY tree...



i wish we had been...


i am planning my....
annual trip to Manhattan.....

and i am wanting to be excited...

a friend said to me recently
"be happy
you can do all your stuff...
with no compromises..."

that's when i realized
your stuff was my stuff
and with you it never felt like a compromise....









yes...




i know things are for the best and life ebbs and flows....
tomorrow will be better
sometimes the distance is a reality bite
and it stings
a little....





i just never thought...

or maybe i did....















3 comments:

Kate said...

i miss you havenator! im sorry you are having a sad day and i hope tomorrow is better. im sure it will be - its a new day!

vivian flash said...

its ok to have sad days honey. nurture it. take care of yourself.

havens said...

thanks ladies.....