wanting to let go....

ahhh

i am feeling so much better....

today has been my first day out of the house

in a week....

being out and about has 

also helped my mental state of mind...

although i find myself so easily irritated

and so easily hurt...

i have to know these things are me...

all related to my stress and break up....

i just wish i could calm my mind a little....

so i have been 

 learning to meditate...

and i spend a lot of time alone,

i figure if i am having such trouble dealing with myself

i can only imagine

how my friends and family feel....

i thank those of you 

 who understand me 

and love me in spite of myself....

thanks for always caring and showing me you do.

i am trying to focus on letting go...

something i have never in my life done easily....

a close friend recently 

let go of parts of her past...

she had a burn ceremony...

and i am 

thinking about doing just the same...

sometimes the ritual 

is just what we need to really release

our emotions....

so i look forward to writing down 

all that i want to let go of and lighting it on fire and 

sending it into the night....

thanks em...

burn photos by emilee cleary