Monday, November 28, 2011

more chandeliers.....



my head is swimming with beautiful 
french chandeliers....

i wish i could have them all....


thinking about this 
for my dining room...




or one of these...






they are all so beautiful.....
what do i do?








Saturday, November 26, 2011

construction!!!


yes...
construction has started on my new house!!!

the demolition project is well on its way and 
i can't wait to take some pictures
and share all of 
the progress with you!



until tomorrow.....







Tuesday, November 22, 2011

wanting to let go....

ahhh
i am feeling so much better....
today has been my first day out of the house
in a week....

being out and about has 
also helped my mental state of mind...

although i find myself so easily irritated
and so easily hurt...

i have to know these things are me...
all related to my stress and break up....

i just wish i could calm my mind a little....
so i have been 
 learning to meditate...




and i spend a lot of time alone,
i figure if i am having such trouble dealing with myself
i can only imagine
how my friends and family feel....





i thank those of you 
 who understand me 
and love me in spite of myself....

thanks for always caring and showing me you do.





i am trying to focus on letting go...
something i have never in my life done easily....

a close friend recently 
let go of parts of her past...

she had a burn ceremony...
and i am 
thinking about doing just the same...
sometimes the ritual 
is just what we need to really release
our emotions....


so i look forward to writing down 
all that i want to let go of and lighting it on fire and 
sending it into the night....






thanks em...
burn photos by emilee cleary








Saturday, November 19, 2011

today i'm sad...


it's the holiday season....
i have been under the weather...

and i am sad...
i miss you
and i don't want to...
but i do...

it's been so long since i have seen you
it feels all wrong....

the space in my heart gets bigger...
emptier....

i sometimes am still in disbelief
at what has come of us...

Christmas is going to be so hard...
i guess we won't be making 
ornaments this year...





or decorating our...
MY tree...



i wish we had been...


i am planning my....
annual trip to Manhattan.....

and i am wanting to be excited...

a friend said to me recently
"be happy
you can do all your stuff...
with no compromises..."

that's when i realized
your stuff was my stuff
and with you it never felt like a compromise....









yes...




i know things are for the best and life ebbs and flows....
tomorrow will be better
sometimes the distance is a reality bite
and it stings
a little....





i just never thought...

or maybe i did....















Saturday, November 12, 2011

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

peace...




this is a picture my friend took 
in her back yard...

this is the
same place where my friend was laid
to rest eternally...





it gave me such a sense
of peace...

i wanted to share it...




thanks jocelyn...







Monday, November 7, 2011

a little monday inspiration....





“… Down deep in every human heart there is mercy and generosity. No one is born hating another person because of the color of his skin, or his background, or his religion. If people can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite.”

― Nelson Mandela







thanks gwen...

Sunday, November 6, 2011

appliances...appliances...appliances...


so i am shopping for appliances...
i know stainless steel is timeless, 
but i am over it!

i am wanting a fresher
brighter
look...

finding this isn't easy...
but this is a cool new line i found 
that is pretty cool...


how cute a green fridge?


or a pink range?



i personally am thinking white...
maybe white 
AND
stainless...

i really like this retro 
style from big chill.....

i wonder wat i will end up with???
ahh
decisions... decisions,,, decisions...







Friday, November 4, 2011

garage sale!!!!

i have been cleaning out my 
house bit by bit....

it has been a major undertaking....




i know it looks like junk now....
but trust me...

once it is organized,
there are some great finds!!

my first goal is to go through my house and collect
everything that is to go into
the yard sale....




then i need to organize and price....
hmmm


stayed tuned for more garage sale
updates...




i will be selling all kinds of clothing...
labels include-
bcbg, michael stars, free people, juicy couture, 
chanel, gucci, st. johns knit, anthropologie,
and plenty more!!


i will have trinkets, dishes, glasses,
jewelry and more!









Thursday, November 3, 2011

dinner tonight!





Servings: 8 servings 
Prep Time: 10 min
Cook Time: 30 min
Difficulty: Easy

Ingredients 

1 10 3/4 -ounce can cream of chicken soup
1 10 3/4 -ounce can cheddar cheese soup
1 10 3/4 -ounce can cream of mushroom soup 


1 10-ounce can tomatoes
1 whole chicken, cooked, boned, and chopped or 4 cups leftover cooked chicken
11 1/2-ounce package flour tortillas
2 cup shredded cheddar cheese

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
In a large bowl, stir together the three kinds of soup and the tomatoes. Stir in the chicken.
In a greased 13 x 9- inch pan, layer the tortillas and the chicken mixture, beginning and ending with tortillas. Sprinkle the cheese over the casserole and bake for 30 minutes.